Open door

Two days ago I had a extremely interesting day! Not saying it was good but interesting! I decided that it was going to be a nice day! Significant idiot went to go help a buddy work on a house to get it ready for winter and I decided to make casserole, lots enough to send two pans to his dad's house so that he could freeze it for later dinners! I so I go to his friends to go pick him up and he's completely wasted! He was suppose to watch our son that night! I was so angry at him that I just started yelling and so he did the only thing that he knows how to do! Yell back but acting his shoe size! He started yelling that I was fat, and any other stupid thing he could think of so I slammed on the brakes, smoke rolling from tires black marks all around, open his door and proceeded to push him out in to the ditch! Yell at him that I would have him arrested if he tried to go back to the apartment for violating his no drink probation! Then called all his friends and told them that if they would give him a ride that they would be helping him go to jail! I didn't hear from him until 10:30 that evening when he called and begged to come home and I told him no and after telling him that I am fed up with all him little games and the never ending drinking problem it just wasn't worth it to try anymore! Well he started to realize that I am serious and said that he wants just one day where he can have to do what ever he wants. Which I know shouldn't happen but proceeded to ask if he seriously thought that he could make it 6 days a week without anything at all and he told me that he could! I know that this is a lost cause but I want to try to make it until the 9th! It's his court date and he is still possibly looking at a month in jail. I am wishing for it! He hasn't learned his lesson and if they let him off easy it won't work! He's been in rehab before but he is one semester away from getting his psychology degree so it doesn't help him because he knows exactly what they want to hear! He has never spent any real time in jail his dad has always bailed him out except for the last time he got in trouble he had to spend the weekend there! He was so shook up afterwards! I want him to go! I think that it's the only way that we even have a chance at making it! Well that's all for now!

What to write if you can't complain!

My life! I still and always will classify it as a soap opera! But the thing that scares me as I try to write in the blog is that I don't really have too much to say that isn't complaining or negative news about our current events! I would like to think that my family and I are at rock bottom and that we are working our way up but it's taking a long time! Significant others court date for his stupid decision on May 19th was on September 18th and I actually asked someone to give us back luck! I want him to get the maximum punishment! I don't think that he was learned his lesson and as he has made progress over the last couple of months I think it is due to lack of freedom! No bars, no license, no opportunity you know! Last week he decided that he wanted to go to his friends which isn't a problem with me if he told me about! But he didn't! And he was drinking! Which I told him I am not his mother, I can't make him be law abiding! But I can control what is going to happen in our child's life and if he decides that drinking is more important that responsibility and family that it won't be a option! I don't want him to associate the memories with his father as a can of beer! He can tell me that he's changed all he wants but it's not going to mean anything until he gets his freedom back and proves that he can handle it! That won't be until next spring! So for now all I can show him is how to be responsible and take responsibilities for his actions. But until then I have no idea what's going to happen with us! Baby boy is now crawling (since 5 months) pulling himself up on furniture, he has two teeth, and we think he is starting to talk but he doesn't know what he is saying I think! If he's crying he starts saying mama, when he's babbling he says dada and now he starts to say yeah. It's pretty hilarious! We just bought a camera so hopefully soon I will figure out how to work it I will post some pictures of us!