Grandma! Yikes

My Grandmother! I don't even know where to begin! She's like the girl in school that was the gossip queen! Started all the rumors and told everyone your personal issues and isn't afraid to tell you her opinion wether you like it or not. I'm really having issues with her lately! The other week she takes one look at me and tells me, "If I pay for you to go to the gym will you go?" I just had a baby and am dealing with alot on my plate now and at the moment all I am trying to do is keep sane, I will go back but I need to get control first! So I told her that I was going to go because I didn't want to say anything I would regret and she starts crying! Telling me that she just shouldn't have had surgery that she wishes she wouldn't have made it through the cancer because no one cares about her anyway. I pointed out that what she said was completely rude and that what she said isn't true! I come over twice a week to see her and let her see the baby! She brings up that my dad doesn't come and see her and my brother who is going back to Iraq only stayed for 15 minutes to say goodbye! Well my dad doesn't come to see anyone! You have to go see him! I have lived in my apartment for over a year now and he's only came over once when he was dropping something off! And I even have the baby! As for my brother! Turns out he came over to say bye and about a half a hour into the visit grandma gets a phone call and continues to talk to her friend while he is there! Well my brother has a ton of people to say bye to and if she's going to talk on the phone he's not going to waste his precious time! So if the men of our family is the problem why take it out on me? I know that I have to enjoy my time with her but sometimes she makes it so hard! We are finally going to move to a two bedroom in 5 days! two months after when we were supposed to but that's what happens when your landlord is a reality company! Some day I will get closer to getting it together.

I think Stress is my hobby!

I seem to remember just over a year ago when I thought that my college life which included, money problems, stress with the roomate and boy problems was too much to handle! I want to go back to that! Lately I'm so bad I think that I am having a break down! The littlest things make me crazy! Today I got mad at the traffic and started crying because I couldn't make a left turn! Just now I got mad because I couldn't make the pop fit in the refridgerator! I think I get mad because these are the things that I can make happen but they won't! I accept that I can't make the baby sleep throught the night, that I can't make the stupid people I work with and wait on suddenly be nice and realize that if they don't have enough money to tip that they shouldn't have come out to eat in the first place! Eat at home, it's alot cheaper! And I accept that most of our paychecks are going to be paying for my fiance's moronic night where he decided to drink and drive so that he could spend some time in jail and lose his license so that I would have the sole responsibility of transporting our family for the next year, which took away our opportunity to buy the house that we were looking at! Like I said I can't change any of it so the only thing I have left is to tell myself that it could be worse! but on the plus note next week we will finally be moving in to the two bedroom apt, which was promised to us two months ago before they decided to put new carpeting in. Trying to cram three people in a one bedroom that is meant for only one person is getting ridiculous! I can't wait! Then maybe I can get organized and not lose things all the time! Until then! Anyone have any extra luck that they don't need please send it my way!